Ben Flores

2011-09-28T12:32:00.003+02:00

2011-09-28T12:32:00.001+02:00

2011-09-28T12:32:00.000+02:00

Confessions....

2011-01-28T16:45:00.001+01:00

When youre about to write a blog which probably no one will understand, this is what comes out..........
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Time passes by..

2011-01-15T01:41:00.001+01:00

Time passes by...
Some wait for it to pass and expect something to happen.. Others wait for the weekend.. Others wait for.. ..

But i dont want it to just pass by .. I want to dedicate who i am to You because i dont know when you'll call me home!

2011 a new year, a new decade!

2011-01-03T17:51:00.002+01:00

Dearest Bloggers,

2011: A new start
Crazy Ideas
Waiting
Stretching

Those are the 4 Things i want to focus on!

Its a new year so its a fresh start after the stormy 2010!

Gonna run after the crazy ideas i have and quit being scared of what people think!

Im gonna wait on God, and wait on his people ( i hope you get the two different waits :) )

And im gonna stretch my limits what ever those may be :)

IM BACK....

2010-12-25T14:37:00.002+01:00

Hey there fellow bloggers!

Its Christmas :) woooow

Its been its been 4 months since my last post. In these past 4 months, many things have changed, ive stopped working and went back to school etc etc.

But in these 4 months, i think the worst thing that could happen was that i never had the time to stop and think. I realised that since i stopped blogging i also stopped reflecting. Apart from this blog i attempted to start a journal but failed badly! i believe that typing out my thoughts was the key for my brain cells to function properly. And im writing here today, its like i rediscovered something so natural to me that i had ignored and forgotten.

So now Im back.

Im Back, but im different,

Im a new man! Im not the same, although some would say oh yes hes the same Jesus boy, Im not.

I want to stretch myself even more! haha its funny to think that i had started this blog as a kid and now im soon 22 ! :)

Holy is the Lord

2010-07-11T04:26:00.000+02:00

Just got home, been talking to Miguel my brother in Christ for the past 2hours.

I had some real time to learn and to stop and realise how much there is which is still need to learn about God. Yet I know how much he loves me.. Its an unexplainable feeling of when two brothers in Jesus meet, the bond christ brings is amazing.. Strengthening eachother and allowing love to flow!

Today was hearing a scottish youth pastor on God tv.. Talking about making it real.. Were all made different but what we have to aim is about making it real. About accepting this call Christ gave us and just be in Him.. People will see Him and not us! We can't become real untill we say yes to God and allow him to change us.. Were all called to serve in different areas but what makes us real is our relationship with God..

And hekk before I sleep.. All I can sing is the verse holy is the lord!

i am not here to judge...

2010-06-26T02:16:00.000+02:00

Having commited to christ for a number of years now has somehow clothed me in the eyes of the world a very holy person....

:s. Bah when people are in shit and I see them the complain don't judge me .. Or hide their faces in shame.. People think I'm here to tell them they did bad! .. Far from it . I want to love, but I get hurt.. I get hurt not by what people do but how they think I would threat them.. I'm not here to judge, I'm here to love.. If I had to judge someone I'd judge myself and fix my self up first..
But instead I chose to follow christ because I know I can't make it on my own.., I stuble very very often but I know I have gods grace to start a fresh..

I hope people get this message.. I'm not here to judge but to love!

theres no title

2010-06-19T03:02:00.000+02:00

Run... Just run... When you hear the message just start running and don't look back..

Following Jesus has been the one thing I never regret of having done.

For those who know me.. I'm a person who has a lot of phases.. Was into bmx then skateboards then into all sorts of crazy things,, I like to dream of doing loads of cool stuff but then they die down.. But one thing has never changed the desicion. I took to follow Jesus..

So once you hear the message and understand make the desicion and do not look back but keep on running towards Jesus..

listen, choose, run

to love even when it hurts..

2010-06-18T01:01:00.000+02:00

Haven't posted in over a month probably.. I have no pc and all I use is my phone.. Which to be honest is awesome and enough. I can be out and keep in touch with everyone anyway.

Been in this very rubbishy mood since I gave my talk, I feel attacked constantly and bleeh.. But I always remember love.. I want to really live this word, to its full meaning but I find myself not loving myself enough to stop and pray .. To stop and think.. To stop and allow my wounds to be healed.. I want to love till it hurts.. Till I can't take it any more.. Love..

A New Season

2010-05-02T16:22:00.002+02:00

Fellow Bloggers,

I am now 21. I will now save on car Insurance ! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW

I am now 21. I am expected to know what ill be doing for the rest of my life. Great!?

I am now 21. A christian in a world where being a christian is like being a Nerd, well
actually to be nerd is actually cool nowadays!

I am now 21. And i dont care!

I am now 21,and i dont care of what the world wants me to be. I am now 21 and i want to be alive! I want to live and not exist! To serve love and get to know people. To be a link between the hurting and the living. To be hope were there is hopelessness.

I smell a new season coming, Were the history makers will be really impacting the world, not as planet earth. But the world in my eyes is the place where i live in .

Will we accept to live the Truth? :) are we ready to love everyone as we love ourselves?

Missionaries , Brothers , Life..

2010-04-13T00:48:00.000+02:00

Their stay has come to an end. And now we will continue our normal routine or meetings and saturday nights at mc donalds.

For most of my friends its the first time they met missionaries. And even though ive met missionaries before, the canadians were different. Something about who they are spoke love to my heart.

Theyre the first missionaries i met who are younger than i am. Their willingness to live and be Christ to others is simply amazing.

I probably havent spent hours with them in fact i only spent a couple of evening getting to know them! But ive learnt so much.. One thing i want to really work on is prayer , it was amazing how these guys would lay their hand on anyone or anything and pray there and then without being shy!

Minjaf maybe one day well be just like them traveling the world sharing the gospel. Making exciting new friend and getting into cool adventures.

But even though they might live an exciting like. I like being a youth worker, actually i Love it. The one thing we have more then them is the fact that we can see the seeds planted grow into beautiful flowers for the lord!

I mean... its amazing being involved in loving , and getting hurt with your people. God has given us such an amazing flock to take care of ... :)

I hope to see you soon land of Canadia!

If one day i could stop time...

2010-04-10T14:14:00.004+02:00

In 3 weeks ill turn 21..

21 years , 15 years which i have little or no memory of.. 5years of change, growth and adventures.

Today 6 years ago, i was dragged by my friends to a y4j meeting in Gudja..
On the 24th of april 2006, i realised that God existed and decided to start a journey that would take me to the craziest places and meeting the most weird, loving friends i have today ...

Time, i wish i could go back.. to those very early years where my faith seemed so much more important than anything else..

Time, i wish i could just stop this moment forever knowing that ill be living in His glory,

If anyone could really understand the confusion in my head... stopping time would solve it all..

Time.. Looking at photos , seeing Gods change in my life.. physical, spiritual and emotional.. Seeing time as a gift and not a curse. Observing the big man i have become from that immature fat bum i was before..

Yet , i dont want time... I wouldnt know how to use it..

So i offer it up and make the best use of it for Your glory!

Dreaming of Tomorrow... Living Today.. Stepping out in faith..

2010-03-28T23:11:00.002+02:00

If you had to ask me, what i dream of becoming.. i would tell you so many different things depending on the phase i would be in , age or emotional state I'm in.

If you had to ask me, did you ever live...I would answer.. Hell yeah! Done most of the crazy things one can think of..

Stepping out in faith.. I would probably say yes i did it many times... but to be honest i can count them on my hands the times when i really took the step out in faith..

One thing God has always tested me about is my studies.. i have always fooled myself about studying claiming i spent hours studying or days but when in reality i probably either i did jack or only spent only a couple of minutes before i was back online chatting. So i ask for my friends forgiveness for the times i lied about studying!

A very good friend of mine this week challenged me to take my studies seriously.
And lately I've been taking what i do in life more seriously.. Maybe because I'm growing up i don't know. I quite smoking, learning to save money a bit( this is still a work in progress) , learning to eat healthily and becoming fit again and like.. after what my friend told me im like why the heck cant i do what God wants me to do and study seriously!

so for the past 3 days I've been studying ta vera! I had to take a decision vera cos like i cant manage to study for my a levels but this may i want my maltese o level!

So I'm gonna give it my all.

And I dream of tomorrow! I dream that one day if I'll ever be blessed with Kids they would say my daddy did all he could! He tried , and done what was required of him.. And i dream that tomorrow others would see Christ in me, through my struggles in doing my duties, in my failures by rising up and trying again !

And i live today to give glory to my God... I live today so that i can dream! I live now to see the kingdom come :D

Here is a link my very good friends myspace... http://www.myspace.com/alexnifong

Alex's such a great guy thought me much in the few weeks he visited Malta! Missing you bruv!

Been listening to his song called Come to London..

London.. yes this is one of my dreams.. such a beautiful city, filled with so many faces that have a name an identity but amongst its confusion you would still be alone.
I dream that one day id be able to live there and if God told me to step out in faith and go live there i soooo WOULD leave everything and go hehe..

But duties before personal desires and for now ill study and get that Maltese o level! well see where ill end up.. I'll Live Today

Signing off with one of my all time favourites.. when i feel lost and down the intro riff to this song always plays in my head.. and helps me connect with God haha :)

Blessings

if anyone could hear..

2010-03-03T14:27:00.002+01:00

If anyone could hear the cry of my heart..
will i be forgotten forever?

Will i be just a tool or will i someday be a person to this world?

If anyone would take time to sit down and listen?

When will all this end?

But i can see that bright light shinning ! Yes i will hold on,
i accept this cross!

You are my all !

Isaiah 42:
13 The Lord will march out like a strong soldier;
he will be excited like a man ready to fight a war.
He will shout out the battle cry
and defeat his enemies.

14 The Lord says, "For a long time I have said nothing;
I have been quiet and held myself back.
But now I will cry out
and strain like a woman giving birth to a child.
15 I will destroy the hills and mountains
and dry up all their plants.
I will make the rivers become dry land
and dry up the pools of water.
16 Then I will lead the blind along a way they never knew;
I will guide them along paths they have not known.
I will make the darkness become light for them,
and the rough ground smooth.
These are the things I will do;
I will not leave my people.

preparing...

2010-02-23T15:34:00.002+01:00

Day 5 of not smoking, realises I've spent 5 years of my life wasting money and my own health!

Day 5 of thinking i could have done so much more by being myself than in the past 5 years of smoking.

Day 5 of thinking it took so long to surrender something that wasn't coming which wasn't coming from God

Day 5 of true freedom!

Last night i couldn't sleep kept thinking of the Stella Maris Outreach and about sharing my testimony.. I did not want to pump up my old life, but not even give it no importance, but i wanted to focus on Christ, and it just hit me.. Be Honest! it might sound weird but sometimes we like to put some mega crazy masks about our christian lives!

Its ok to be scared! its ok to fail! Its ok to run to Jesus in tears! Its ok to accept that life is being harsh! And lets not paint that everything is so great because its not ! But we have CHRISTS Joy! were free ! And that IS AMAZING , GREAT AND AWESOME!

Honesty! being honest with ones self about his or her struggles in life, but accepting that hey i cant do anything but God will do it all in love!

Now I'm shit scared of the Stella Maris outreach, I'm ultra duper mega scared of what the sound will be like at the Lenten talks, and I'm even more scared because i do not know what I'm gonna say for my talk! But I'm filled with Joy knowing that if i let go in His hands and move were He moves me everything will be Great!

All glory to God guys!!

pray pray pray! The battle has just started!!

Gets It!

2010-02-09T00:17:00.002+01:00

Today whilst i was in the chapel, the story of the farmer planting the seed came in mind.

I was thinking how God has sown this seed in my heart, and because i wanted to i allowed it to grow. But I was like was is christianity about? What am i meant to do? So i thought of my past.. and realised that it wasnt the multitude that helped me grow my faith, it wasnt the church filled worship sessions but the love and time of my dear friend Joseph!

And it just clicked.. We as followers of Christ should help individuals grow in a deep intimate way with christ! Its not about bringing thousands to faith! But about giving up our own precious time to love, help sustain the few! Really loving them and helping the to grow in Christ making sure they plant the seed well having deep roots instead of "converting" thousands and ending up dry after a few months!

Love the unloved especially when we ourselves feel unloved, Feed the poor when we ourselves have nothing to give, Give time to others even when we dont have for ourselves..

Dieing to ones self, for the Love of our brothers and sisters in Our God, for his glory!

I get it :D

I give Up!...

2010-02-07T10:28:00.003+01:00

Stressed, Panicked and lost..
At times i feel like a kid who lost his dad at a supermarket and suddenly the kids starts looking everywhere for the dad yet his dad would be always behind him but the little kid never realises! And he panics and cries and shout.. Were are you daddy??
And when everything seems to really go bad.. He calms his little child by showing him that he is there!

This week i was feeling just like that little kid, I was tempted with so many earthly things and different lifestyles, that i just wanted to give up because it was too hard.. But in my head i had made the real desicion to follow Christ , so i kept repeating it to myself in my time of dispair, i could not see God moving at that moment but i knew he was there !

His love never fails! No matter what happens what im presented with, today Ben can say i want to choose christ above all! Even though i stumble and fall i will get up and walk in his path again! I am not willing to give up the life i have in him for anything else.

This post probably made sense to no one, i re wrote it 3 times but i couldnt write what i was feeling in the way i wanted, so it will remain locked up inside.

Living it..

2010-01-12T10:22:00.003+01:00

Yesterday i had an argument with a very close friend of mine. And today i heard this song, and God simply broke my heart.

Jesus spoke about love, radical love. man its so hard (:

I always thought of this song as my mission statement of God sending me to far away countries to take the good news. But i havent yet realise that i need to start living it here. Living love till it hurts! Just like Jesus did on the cross, whilst that pain and agony he found the time to love the sinner who was next to him on the cross!

What a great loving God! and i cant even love someone who never did anything to me! Fidejk Big Boss! Only you can make the change inside of me (:

Following Christ

2010-01-06T09:43:00.003+01:00

There is deep desire in my heart to pursue what God has planned for my life, but i realise that there are many areas in my life which i have to let go off.

I am sure that anyone who is willing to follow Christ, will find areas where he must let go off to follow his one Love.

God is a creative God, he constantly creates out of his love,and calls us to change, and to be his amazing work of art.

But why?

Why cant i let go?

Aint i able to follow my heart?

Oh dearest one Please free me from myself.. all i want is who you are!

Battle.. Worship... Hope.. The Game

2010-01-03T02:33:00.002+01:00

Confusing title right? Been having a blast playing The Game with someone :P *langas-orange* Its quite confusing if you dont get it :P and many dont!

Today Youths, Gods spirit could be really felt, i wanted to jump and scream with Joy!
A 2009 which passed mega quick, without much time to be and relax with God, This is what i want from 2010, time to think about my Love, what he wills for my life and pursuing what he wants me to do!

Also met an amazing english family today! Great worshipers! Thanks Ten,Tad,Tan for comin! Worship, such an overflow of our lives, when we walk with God, spend time with him, and just listening, Thanking him for always being there in the good or bad!
When we live a worshipers life we truly become a living testimony of Gods love for everyone!

Battle, 2010 begins.. A year filled with new challenges from God, ie more attacks from the one down there hehe, But hey ive got a good sword(bible). Lets get ready for battle guys, lets really take up the guts, to die for what we believe in, to be truly witnesses of love! Remember as Paul Washer emphasises in his sermon, Being calleda christian, or just praying a prayer of salvation doesnt really save you unless you let go of everything and follow Jesus!

Atm im reading the Life- J John. a Book which speaks about Jesus, its actually a basic for People who dont know Jesus or are still new to christianity, but sometimes i think we claim to be christians but we dont even know what christ preached, said , and lived! So im going back to basics and learning who Jesus is, what he did, how he lived.. Also been looking for a book about the Holy Spirit. I know nothing about him! And i honestly want to learn to grow to love him! the cool thing is that he already loves me :D

A NEW START

2010-01-01T12:10:00.003+01:00

Welcome Twenty-ten (as rach calls it)!

A brand new year, a chance to make a new start.
(: it quite exciting, a new year , a whole 365 days of crazy things, fun stuff and even dull or sad moments!

Last night , DON Disko vs lightsout was honestly one of the best Nye Parties ive ever attended, Great crowd, nice place. What i honestly liked about last night that i didnt drink and did not fight or argue with anyone, the first time in so many years! I feel honestly proud of myself. I managed to break this vicious circle of Nye= Alcohol galore+ and fights with Gods love that was broken!

I pray that you all guys may have a blessed year filled with Gods blessings, love and mercy !

Back home..

2009-12-02T01:15:00.002+01:00

Dear Friends,

Ive been away, 4 days cut off from all that is home! And it felt AWESOME! For once i was a nobody. i was lost in a sea of faces just like the song of Kutless. Here im a someone. Im Ben the sound man of Y4J the big tall guy who drives a van.. i have an identity, a family, friends and a job.

But who am i? or rather who am i meant to be? Its a question which i ask myself constantly... who is Ben.. and yet i have no answer

I learnt to love myself as God has made me with all my "diffetti" and all but what is He making me into?

In London, the place really didnt impress me, its only stone, bricks and years of history.. ok it was nice.. but the poor sleeping outside in the rain and cold.. what about those?
Is it fair?
I dont care if i become rich, have a steady job or a family if there are millions who still sleep outside, and all we do is pass by them and forget them..

I was thinking today about most of the young guys at y4j, how ive seen them grow in the past few year into real Men of God.
Will we just walk by the broken? will these men do something? are we willing to be change? Ready to give it all up for the kingdom?

One thing which impressed me at the concert was this:
During one of the songs i cant remember which a guy (a) stood on his friend (b) shoulder and sang along cheering the crowd and really into it. Martin Smith was like :O ... But what impressed me was that B was giving A the glory role by submitting for his friend and serving him in carrying....

Imagine if we know someone who we know God has called him to be a preacher ezempju... do we pray for him,support him and give them all they need, Just for him to do what God has called him to do?
Are we willing to die to ourselves so that others can rise trough our suffering?

Christians= Christ like..
ILLL kemm hi kbira dik il kelma... before boasting your a christian look at yourself and see if what your doing is uplifting others or yourself...

Attenti! no easy task!

Blessings

ChAlLeNgEd

2009-11-15T14:01:00.002+01:00

This past two weeks as we all were discussing about new years eve, stories from past parties came up, a few of when i got extremely drunk, fights etc!Well anyway as i just stated thats past!

Hekk God really was telling in these 2 days that i dont need to be that again.. even tough people thought it was funny and it was nice telling those stories now, showing how foolish i was when i was drunk..

Its past, Ive grown, im a new person in Christ now.. I took a new commitment to Love Christ with all i am, and before i took this commitment He died and rose up to give me new life so that whats past would be all removed from my history records!

Saul was then made into Paul!

Im determined not to let that thing happen again, not because christianity says so, but because if i drink ill fight and i want to love people because Christ is love! And i want to share what christ did for me with the rest of the world!

Im ready to go for it and look at NYE in a different way! From a disciple of Jesus point of view :)

i have been called to.....

2009-10-23T16:22:00.005+02:00

Writing to most Christians...

Do you ever recall instances when you feel that God has really called you to do something? and in time either because it was not time yet, or you needed to grow deeper in Jesus, or else because time passed and you simply haven't done anything about it?

Do you remember how passionate we used to pray when we first became Christians? How many hours we used to read the bible? How we enjoyed listening to older Christians speak about their faith? or how much we loved to learn about our God?

Have we sometimes forgotten about our one true Love? or just taken him for grunted? Have we allowed our calling slip away? or have we left it there until we think we can settle our lives?

This morning i just finished a book by Barry woodworth, Once an addict. This guy was a heavy drug user and also a dealer, in and out of prison. During one night whilst he was still a heavy drug user and he got mentally ****** always hearing voices. He felt prompted by God to go to a town, He was definatley on drugs but he knew God had called him to this place so he stripped nakes crossed a river and knocked at a place he thought he was called to. Obviously the lady who opened called the police seeing a man naked who wanted to come in.

Years later he found himself in a church with his neighbour, and there was an alter call( he had forgotten about being called) and he was healed of his addictions, After some weeks studying the bible and praying he understood his calling and it was to become an evangelist. He enrolled in a Bible school, whilst on his way there he realised it was a few blocks away from were he was called by God in the first time!

Sometimes its Good to allow God to take care of our calling, but when he tells us its time.. are we willing to let go? let go off our securities in life? Living 100% for God? Its a definatly hard thing to do. But this thought of letting everything go was haunting me all morning, untill i realised who my earthly securities are... but am i willing to let them go and follow his calling?.....

I hope that you take your calling seriously and ask you to take time out to think who God is in your life.. is he the pilot or your co pilot?

my prayer and my addiction...

2009-10-21T19:26:00.001+02:00

Hey guys long time no post,

How have you all been? I must say on my side quite a lot of things happened. The youth weekend was a weekend filled with new insights.

My prayer,
Lately this is what i pray and sing daily, apart from psalm 25 which i love very much and i would like to share it with you..

Open our eyes
To see the things that make Your heart cry
To be the church that You would desire
Your light to be seen

Break down our pride
And all the walls we’ve built up inside
Our earthly crowns and all our desires
We lay at Your feet

Let hope rise
And darkness tremble
In Your holy light
That every eye will see
Jesus our God
Great and mighty to be praised

god of all days
Glorious in all of Your ways
Oh the majesty the wonder and grace
In the light of Your Name

With everything
With everything
We will shout for Your glory
With everything
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

Our hearts they cry
Be glorified
Be lifted high above all names
For You our King
With everything
We will shout forth Your praise

I guess you all recognised the song :) Make it your prayer too.. and hekk i encourage all you guys to keep praying, we are free and we are not undergoing harsh persecution but we can never say when that will end and we will have to worship God in hidden places.

My addiction,

Im an addict, i used to love it before then i stopped but now im totally addicted, i dream about it and all i think is about it!
My books :S yes it might sound strange but lately im getting extra addicted to books, Reading constantly when ever i have a chance.. that isnt the bad part but at night i read in my sleep, i dream of reading and i read whole pages like litteral words lol ... haha i need a good night out 3 days till the weekend :P

Throne..

2009-10-01T15:46:00.002+02:00

Lets get ready, lets get excited, lets rejoice Because God will do Awesome stuff this weekend!!! Lets our hearts be prepared to meet our living God! Lets come to this weekend with an expectant heart let it not just be a weekend of fun but a weekend which will change our lives totally!! Lets all pray for the people setting up and involved in the prep of this weekend, let there be no injuries and i pray that hell keep us united as one family, one church! i also ask you guys to pray for the equipment! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh excitment!!

THE END....

2009-09-19T01:16:00.002+02:00

It has finally come to an end. The second summer of Mustard seed.
Today i was really feeling bad knowing that i could have done so much more to make Mustard seed a place where Christian's can meet and bring friends and talk to them about Jesus.
I think i could have prayed much more for it, then taking it 'for grunted'...

I pray that the seed's planted will grow. And i'm sure God did great things trough my nothingness.. I pray for all those who served that what they have given, time and smiles, God will repay them with endless joy and peace.

Hekk i really hope i learn how to serve more in love. Loving more instead of getting all angry and pissy :)
I have to thank Bettina for helping me out on this hehe she was always telling me not to shout and be more loving :) Thanks Bett.

I also want to thank Sam.. Brother you've helped me keep focused when i lost all hope in this project! If it wasnt for my brother i would have never managed, the hours spent at lidl the crazy stuff and the excitment he had haha ill never forget them..

Also Special thanks to Kevin and Leana this summer who helped me and supported me, and listened to me grumbling and moaning and teaching me :)

Tutzi, Stefan and the rest of the youth team, Thanks for your constant prayers! This was a team effort! Praying, pastoral teachings, love, support, and cooking :)
And to the rest who helped in any way a Big thanks for helping us out in planting mustard seeds in everyones hearts :)

Lets dream big.. we had a small seed (small kitchen, small cafe area, no fridge) and now it will grow into a big project just like the mustard tree :)

Any way im off to sleep.. been a long day

God bless ya all

Signing off with the video promo of mustard seed of last year .. Enjoy

Macho

2009-09-08T12:57:00.002+02:00

Since i was always left alone dealing with my problems and being a guy i always tend to take the situation in my hand and not trusting God or getting worked up over everything. But yesterday it was amazing for the first time i was in front of Jesus and i let my baggage at his feet and just stood still in awe of his love.. Its not that i didnt trust God but it was like no God wont take everything or i cant give him this problem i can solve it by myself.. but its really not.. i become nervous, i literally at times become an ass to those around me.. and i was just there standing with my hands down just seeing God taking it all away.

this video really explains it all..

I know God has something great prepared.. He wants me to make my tent even bigger so that he can fill it up even more.. More love..
Get deep in the word guys

Security,

2009-08-23T20:18:00.002+02:00

A new car, a good job,high education, a villa with a pool and social security,

Isnt that what the world portraits? dont get me wrong im not saying that thats all bad but is that what were all called for? God calls people to work for his kingdom, some are called in a way and some in another. But God calls some people like the rich man in the bible to sell everything and follow him... are you ready for that if he calls?

2009-08-10T18:36:00.001+02:00

This song was sung first time i went to soul survivor. less than 2 days left and excitment is rising. Soul Survivor 2006 was a real big event in my life it determined where i am today.. who knows what God will send me now ?!hehe

sea, nightlife, and early morning jog

2009-08-09T05:58:00.003+02:00

Before i start my blog today id like you to visit this link http://www.worshipcentral.org/newsong and listen to the first song of ben cantelon coming back, its the song which ive fallen in love with lately and has helped me get back on track :)

So today was quite a packed day but one i really enjoyed and relaxed!
this morning i woke up for work as usual and then my friend Jerry invited me on his speed boat with josef. so after work we went on the boat after preparing delicious ftira's for us.

When we were going to some bay which ive never seen or heard of i was admiring Gods creation, the sea ,the big cliffs, the fish .. ahh what an awesome God .. Praise him forever! I was filled with such an inner peace that only God could give.. Last friday i wanted to quit everything but i begged the lord to comfort me and take care of my situation, and infact he did i received a couple of encouraging emails and this boat trip..

Night life.. whats the first thing that pops in your head? Pv! Today we started off our night at martina's house joes cousin and we proceeded to pv.. i must say it was a very good night and God spoke to me a lot like he always does in pv, we came across tons and tons of fights.. and God just said, look at these people,they are lost, they do not know that i am Love and that in love everyone can be free, free from the chains of sin! after having my spirit calmed down in the afternoon God , He started this fire to tell these people about him and his eternal sacrifice and gift! But how to spread this burning passion in my heart? i suppose ill wait till he shows me how! till then ill pray :)

early morning... i just got home half an hour ago after a great night and great day filled with Gods love, decided to blog, read and go jogging :D ahhh the fresh morning!

Signing off with Love..

God bless ya all.

2009-08-05T10:05:00.002+02:00

Where is the fire that we all had for Jesus, the passion to serve, the willingness to serve for Jesus in love? The want of going that extra mile without complaining in Love.. Were did our dreams end up? the dream of building a church of hard core bible lover christians? where did our dreams of becoming missionaries, evangelists and leaders of this church go? Are we all just looking inwards instead of outwards?

Are we more concerned about our social status? do we want to get our hands dirthy? do we want to deny ourselves for Jesus love? do we actually want the spirit to live in us? Let Run away from the world and its habits!

If we dont live in christ were all dead .. kaput! claiming to be christian doesnt mean we are.. i get scared at times that when i day Jesus will say i dont know you..

Let us understand that this is a real battle between Love and evil but with an assurance that Love has already won..

Lets wake up seriously and take Jesus bis serjeta! im not talking about anyone in particular but for everyone including and especially myself, writing this will help me get a shock of whats around me.. and i hope it will help you open your eyes.

Re- kindle my fire oh God...

2009-08-05T09:42:00.002+02:00

Galatians 5
Freedom in Christ
1It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
2Mark my words! I, Paul, tell you that if you let yourselves be circumcised, Christ will be of no value to you at all. 3Again I declare to every man who lets himself be circumcised that he is obligated to obey the whole law. 4You who are trying to be justified by law have been alienated from Christ; you have fallen away from grace. 5But by faith we eagerly await through the Spirit the righteousness for which we hope. 6For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision has any value. The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love.

7You were running a good race. Who cut in on you and kept you from obeying the truth? 8That kind of persuasion does not come from the one who calls you. 9"A little yeast works through the whole batch of dough." 10I am confident in the Lord that you will take no other view. The one who is throwing you into confusion will pay the penalty, whoever he may be. 11Brothers, if I am still preaching circumcision, why am I still being persecuted? In that case the offense of the cross has been abolished. 12As for those agitators, I wish they would go the whole way and emasculate themselves!

13You, my brothers, were called to be free. But do not use your freedom to indulge the sinful nature[a]; rather, serve one another in love. 14The entire law is summed up in a single command: "Love your neighbor as yourself."[b] 15If you keep on biting and devouring each other, watch out or you will be destroyed by each other.

Life by the Spirit
16So I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature. 17For the sinful nature desires what is contrary to the Spirit, and the Spirit what is contrary to the sinful nature. They are in conflict with each other, so that you do not do what you want. 18But if you are led by the Spirit, you are not under law.
19The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

I dont want to live under the law but in Love.. why does life feel so tense at the moment, why arent we seeing miracles happening and the fruit of the spirit all around us? i pray God convict us of our sins and open our eyes to walk back on the path by your grace..

2009-07-30T20:15:00.001+02:00

Wounded, Tired, Lost.. But i Will hold on!

2009-07-18T01:35:00.002+02:00

This battle is really tiring, the enemy has been shooting at me, trying to break me down since i was a young kid soldier.. and now.. I got hit, im bleeding.. tired from all the running away from the enemy because i lost my troop i hide in the forest, in the enemy's own camp.. Its scary and i keep getting shot and keep on bleeding.

Yet i know the enemy cannot kill me, altough im shot at and deserve to be killed, the mark of the blood of Jesus on my head doesnt allow them to kill me.. And i hold on to this mark.. the only mark that even tough i hid in the enemy's camp site, lost my way from the troop. i will not loose..

I will am a winner with my King!

His kingdom will Reign and id rather go in all wounded then not be in his glorious kingdom ..

God.. Please grab me from the enemies lines, take me to your safe place, love me and heal me so that i can be restored, and send me back into the battle field so that i can worship your name and show all the world what you've done with me..

I NEED YOU TO LOVE ME...

Training..

2009-07-02T23:05:00.001+02:00

Been training for almost 4 and a half months now, my arms seem to start forming and my back too..

A slow process which will bear fruits if i stick to it..
Its a kick ass hard program that sometimes you say man i just wanna quit but its worth it! taking care of the diets , doing exercises and taking the necessary supplements and finally you will see the results.

And today whilst i was walking back home i was saying isn't that exactly my christian life, i gotta exercise my mind and discipline myself to give whats God to God, dieting on Gods word and taking the supplements which are needed ( talks, worship)..

Its hard but if you stick to it you ll bear fruits, and in the times of trial you wont stumble because you've trained yourself in trusting God with all heart soul and mind!

blogger blogger blogger

2009-06-29T20:18:00.002+02:00

I was getting tired of writing blogs, pouring out myself on a website..
But i havent done it in a while and i feel full.. writing this blog relaxes me and de-stresses me!

This week i met with a brother in Christ who helped me realise some areas where i was slacking in , getting caught up in the works and not in Jesus. Workin on my relationship with Jesus is what helps me go every day in life...

oh well i dont know what to write ...

cireeoo

In my weakness I am Strong!

2009-06-14T03:28:00.002+02:00

Before you read this blog, this is not a pity party blog, i know i have these imperfections in me, and in God im delighted to have them, so please dont comment saying its not true.

So i was worshiping God two days ago, and i was barefoot..
And Gods told me look at yourself.. and i started seeing all these physical imperfections i have, which if i had to see it in humanly eyes id say wooo i cant do anything with this,

But at that moment i started thanking God..

Thank you God for making me a flat foot, i cant go anywere alone, got a clumsy walk.. thank you God for being my feet, in the places you want to take me.

Thank you God for my weak knees, i cant stand straight unless its by your power love and strength.

Thank you for my yellow teeth, because it is only trough your smile that i can help you reach out to people.

Thank you for my chubbyness, im not attractive but because you live in me, people come talk to me and ask me about you.

Thank you for my inabilty to speak what i have in mind and for the times i stutter, because its only you that can speak wisdom out of my mouth!

Thank you God for being my strength in my weaknesses.. I am Strong because you love me..

will i go?

2009-06-08T15:51:00.001+02:00

I would like to thank my sister in Jesus and friend, Christina Ste for sharing this song with me! Thanks so much Chris!

What i pray for..

2009-05-23T10:48:00.002+02:00

As i grow older my willingness to be all out for God deminishes.. Why am i scared to go were you send me oh Lord? Why am i so afraid?
Maybe because i grow older i realise that i want to settle down, build my own future and my own home sweet home? Maybe because i started to think the same the world does, grow p find a job buy a house get married and have kids?
Is that what i am really called to?
I want my enthusiam back, I want to plan trips and go round the world helping the last the least and the lost, seeing other churchs being planted and growing. That is really Me , A witness to Jesus love! A harvester! A fisher of men!
Thats what we are all called to be in our own little ways!

This post was written for myself i needed to see it written and shouted out aloud, But i I challenge you to think of that too, are you conforming to the patterns of this world
..

I pray for enthusiasm and courage, that the spirit of God will be always tangibley present in us, even if we dont feel him we can see him work. I pray that we never give up on sharing our faith with Others, and pray that when we get demoralised we do not get carried away by the world!

Im trying to plan a trip for next winter to England, I want to visit a couple of churchs and insititutions and see how they operate in spreading the news.. anyone got some good churchs in mind please leave a comment or if anyone is willing to join me in my little adventure :)

Offroad :)

2009-05-21T13:45:00.002+02:00

Imagine, you have a new landrover.. your driving but your not such a good driving, you mock the car punctures some engine problems and you try fixing it yourself but it seems to get even worse and worn out!, In the distance you see a Big guy who seems to know well how to fix and mend landys..
you stop by and ask for his help, He accepts under one condition that he drives.. he takes you these offroad places where you never dreamed of going, you get scared and move a bit the steering wheel for him and you scratch the side with a rock.. he calms you down and assures you that he is the only one who can do it...
Finally you arrive to destination safely...

Life is like an offroad experience, you cant get anywere without God

2009-04-30T17:36:00.001+02:00

Living it to the full

2009-04-28T09:50:00.003+02:00

14Then Peter stood up with the Eleven, raised his voice and addressed the crowd:

"Fellow Jews and all of you who live in Jerusalem, let me explain this to you; listen carefully to what I say. 15These men are not drunk, as you suppose. It's only nine in the morning! 16No, this is what was spoken by the prophet Joel:

17" 'In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people.

Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions,

your old men will dream dreams. 18Even on my servants, both men and women,

I will pour out my Spirit in those days,

and they will prophesy. 19I will show wonders in the heaven above and signs on the earth below,

blood and fire and billows of smoke.

20The sun will be turned to darkness and the moon to blood before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord.

21And everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved.'

Hey guys been doing some bible study yesterday and Just as hekk iw as flicking trough my bible i came across Ezekiel 23 and it really struck me how hekk the two sisters just lusted for men and God in the end ended up turning away from them. Yet God had a plan to save us ever tough we are like those prositutes, we always run to sin. In levitikus 1 it says how to prepare a sacrifice for God and The best male with no defects was offered to God. Jesus the eternal sacrifce that cleansed us from our sin and shame. He is the bridge for us the prostitutes to repent and run back to God.

Next thursday evengelisaton at tarxien contact lawrence for details.

Next Sunday Youthful worship at uni chapel or Celebration worship at Immaculate conception chapel

People come and go...

2009-04-24T16:06:00.002+02:00

This isnt just about y4j but everywere we christians go...
Have you ever realised how many people came to y4j in the past years and we havent seen or heard of them again.. some might say their roots werent planted well but can we say that thats the reason why all of them dont come any more?

I have started to look at it in another way... what am i doing to keep people around us in church? am i really testifing the love of God by including them talking to them and sharing with them? I am not saying there should be no klikkek cos i guess thats life to have a small group of friends are we doing it at the cost of breaking others?

I still remember one episode of a guy who had started to come to y4j, we were all young 5 guys barely in their 13 and we didnt like him so we just ignored him and made fun of him and played jokes week in week out.. now hes out there getting drunk every weekend...

We are responsible to bring Jesus to others.. are we ready to look bad infront of our friends in order to help someone else, to be with the lost and lonely and shy people at y4j , church and where ever we go?

ARE WE WILLING?

2009-04-20T21:38:00.001+02:00

ready..

2009-04-20T15:22:00.002+02:00

so long time no post fellas..
Loads a things been happenin, loads of changes and a time to stay quiet with My God.
So ive offically stopped smoking :D which is like wow.. its something which ive wanted to do for ages, and God has always told me to stop.. but they were my "refuge" the part of me where i didnt want to let go off.. yet once i let it go God healed many other areas in my life which i had been stuck in for ages :)

I want to thank an angel sent from God in my life, i had one of my "the world is gonna end now " moments and she kept conforthing me and reminding me how much God loves me ! So i ask you all guys to pray for all our angels :)

Dont knwo really what to say more i just want to be silent and listen to my creator cireoo

Facing my Giants?

2009-04-07T23:31:00.003+02:00

Like i normally do, after work i go to gym, but today i took a detour and went to the chapel first. I hadnt prayed yet so i said prayer before anything else.

When i get to the gym its the same old thing walking head down. I always feel so small amongst all those body builders. Especially since lately these two guys american marine like machos have been giving me bad looks every time i go. But today i held my head up.. I knew that in my physical weakness amongst such strong men i knew i was stronger internally!
I sometimes think that we as christians underestimate our God and his strength! we say u le he wont care for such a small thing or else that he cant make something right or we even say he wont care about something so small

Apart from all these mixed feelings at the gym there some positive stuff coming out too, Im training myself, im also taking a break from my phone, and thats the best thing i could wish for !

...courage , strength and wisdom...

2009-04-03T10:40:00.002+02:00

I can still remember the days when i considered Rock as my God. Knowing facts and learning new songs of Bands was the ultimate priority and trying to be cool as fellow rockers too...

But what is it all about? is it really just about the music.. i was listening to some songs of P.o.D and i said like thank God for bands like these because rockers can still hear the message of God..

Are we scared to share the gospel ? people are needed in every area of society! are we willing to go just like these guys did? it takes guts ! some of us mayb be in the students scene some of us in the ballet scene otehrs are musicians some others are athletes .. are we being Christ to our sub groups ? E

Every 3 minutes 1 christian gets killed for his faith .. and they could live if they deny christ.. do we have the same guts to go out and do whats right!!

Jesus himself said we will be persecuted for his name and if were not theres something wrong i guess!!

Lets not just fellowship with the "holy" people but lets go out there and be with the sinners because God loved us even before we truned to him and we are called to witness!!

So i ask you to pray.. pray for courage and strength and wisdom.. in the first chapter of proverbs God speaks about the wisdom he wants to share with us! the wisdom that will be our strength and trough that wisdom we shall know Gods heart.

Lets also find time to pray together not just at y4j or at our comunities, lets meet on a one to one basis and pray for eachother we pray against temptation we each find in our daily lives.. when we unveil the chains of the master of evil God will break them.. Lets ris eup and be a strong church , a chruch which is not ready to compromise its beliefs!
Lets share together , cry and rejoice together.. For in us they will see Jesus ! so i pray for Gods help to show us how to let go totally in his hands so that by our lives we shall see others get saved by his blood!

Church

2009-03-30T09:44:00.002+02:00

Long time no post guys!! well im back ! got 5 mins so i decided because God really touched my heart this morning whilst i was working on loads of papers! and id forghet if i had to write it later!

What is he doing? Is this the God that really and truly works when we give it up to him? To be honest with everyone.. i was crushed most of the days of the lenten talks.. the only area i was good in seemed to be failing no matter how hard i tried and done my best it didnt want to come right! Well i knew i had to let it Go so that He may take over and infact he did.. he sent his two angels Joe and Andrew which i would like to thank so much!
Yet God still chose to use me to touch his church.. Been speaking to loads of my old friends.. who really saw a change in me :)when i use dto get nervous id break stuff now i just get pissy and after 5 mins im back to being ok haha :D

Ive seen old friends, truly meeting with the heart of God crying out to a God they yet do not know! so nice... after years of being a christian some of my friends are realising that what i have is worth living for! And not just that .. The church was packed with youths.. some of which i have no idea who they were and yet they offered to help and wanted to come help us in all we needed... Isnt that great?
God is rising a Church of people who are there ready to go out of their way to help others!

Lets keep on Praying for all the youths who came to the lenten talks so that the seed that was sawn will grow and grow! Lets be a church thats alive, a church that has a passion for Jesus, a church which is truly willing to carry the cross and follow the master!

Joy

2009-03-10T00:19:00.002+01:00

There is joy within my heart in a place only i can explore
a place where i am free to be,where i can be what i am best
A place where i can express my hidden feelings and hurts

Yet these tough emotions are broken with blood that brought Joy,
I am graced from death by Love,
It is in Love where i want to dwell,

But im like a volcano, i want to erupt this emotion and share it with the world,
i will hold the hand of my Creator and walk
in Love, for Love trough hurts and pain but with Joy
I am alive and free :)

healing rain?

2009-03-08T01:32:00.002+01:00

i actually dont know what to write.. but i know i have to write! my heart is pumping again, its like im reborn in Jesus for the ten billionth time. i have come back to Jesus and it feels so good.

How can i waste time, i want to drink from the deepest parts of Gods heart, i want to live Love just as God would want us to live, live to be loved by our Father and live to love till the end of the cross!
thanks teen for ur sharing :)

resources

2009-03-01T16:31:00.002+01:00

Hey guys,
was browsing this afternoon for some good resources to put me back on track and found these 2 bible study plans .. well hope someone find them usefull

6 month plan- http://www.deliberatepeople.com/files/pdf/devo-6.pdf

12 month plan- http://www.deliberatepeople.com/files/pdf/devo-12.pdf

Gbu guys

im free...

2009-02-28T18:33:00.002+01:00

my 5th lent as a christian, i think nowits time to really take it to another level.. this lent i want to grow in Jesus and allow him to build the joy that He promised!

The joy that isnt something that is wow how cool is that thing but its something with a much greater meaning
The Joy that by knowing, believing that Jesus Christ son of God came down to earth to die for my sins and to rise again after 3 days to give me new life and freedom..

Isnt that the greatest Joy? Knowing that someone loved you so much and now your free by his love?

2009-02-23T22:14:00.002+01:00

i decided, i'll close my eyes and walk... walking miles and miles in places and situations i have never been. but most important of all i close my eyes and i know that im holding the hand of the creator, the hand of teh one who gave it all for me and only logs to love me and protect me... will i stop trying to run away from this hand? why do i forget? do i trust my God enough to close my eyes and allow him to love me ? even in the toughest times of all?

Am i willing to close my eyes and walk?
Do i believe that he loves me? and no matter what happens taht he will take care of me ! and take me always to the places?

Do i want to live the life?

2009-02-11T19:27:00.004+01:00

"And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him" Collosians 3:17

I received a message from a very very good friend of mine this morning as i woke up :) it really made my day!! thanks! and i felt i should share it with you guys

2009-02-08T02:05:00.001+01:00

i wonder..

2009-02-08T01:42:00.002+01:00

I still wonder why i never quit going to Y4J, there have been times in my life where i really did not feel God speak, or where i didnt want to hear him speak, where i wanted my way.. but why did i remain?

Sound, music kept me committed to serving the church, and its trough Christ church that i always stood up and allowed him back into my life after that i reject him.. hes a really patient God :) i just feel like blogging about how much he loves us its incredible i should be shot dead for what ive done yet he choose to die instead of me and all i need to do is to accept his love.

i also want bless all those who mentored me during my walk with the lord and those whom still are.. Thank you guys for accepting Gods call..

why such love? there this love inside of me for these youths especially the young ones, minjaf what God has prepared for me ? he trains us when were young for the big commission :)

So guys when you really think theres no way back just look at the cross and remember trough all the storms trough all the silence he will be with you!

God Bless Ya

hmmm

2009-02-05T15:35:00.002+01:00

Seems like i fell in again, everytime i get in this battle i seem to be wounded and about to leave all that gives me hope i abandon the idea that im alive and we already have one , my heart is so sad at the fact that in some areas in my life i cant go right.. Merciful God i ask for your holy forgiveness..

Tutzi had always told us to go back to the first love and God touched my heart with music infact its trough music that the lord showed me who i need i cant do it by myself.. so i will stand up and start walking again for the millionth time

2009-01-23T23:31:00.001+01:00

..

2009-01-22T20:39:00.003+01:00

hey guys havent posted in a while..
at the moment i am very sick and like been at home for more than 30 hours and having no contact with the outside world made me so lonely! spent loads of time praying and reading .. at the moment im reading a sacred romance. still at the very chapter of the book but it really made me want to read more it speaks about the heart .. the little place where God speaks to us and with the busyness of our lives we loose contact with it even with churchy events!

so this past week ive filled up my agenda with this land rover i went to see , was actually gonna buy it but then i realised that the space i left for God was like so small! am i really ready for such a thing if it will cost me God?!

Delirious? - Now Is The Time

2009-01-09T11:06:00.001+01:00

this vid makes me cry, t helps me to understand more and more what i wrote in my previous post.. if we sometimes really do stuff because of their meaning minjaf where the world would be :)

now is the time..

2009-01-03T14:34:00.001+01:00

I think now is the time for us to sit down and reflect.. whats been going on in our lives which direction or which desicions to take.. some decernment.. which road to take.. its all about slowing down and allowing ourself to become in contact with our creator choosing the right paths and allowing him to take us to the ends of the world.. in what ever sense that may mean... for me it could mean outreaching to youths, for you it can be being a light with ur friends.. not everyone is called to do big things but what we are called to do were called to do at our best and he will do the rest.. so now is the time to take the right desicions in life.. there might never be a tmrw

we are all a new creation in Jesus

2009-01-01T23:58:00.002+01:00

why

2008-12-30T19:28:00.001+01:00

Why is it so hard to show your people that living for you is so full filling.. why does my soul cry out to you and i hear no response? yet i know and believe that you are working , your healing , your freeing people from their chains yet i see nothing happening.. I believe oh God in you that you are my strength even though it seems like my world its toppling over , friends i cannot recognise any more.. You are all that i Want you are all I Need

life..

2008-12-30T02:05:00.003+01:00

Where am i? space and time! materialistic things consume my world.. but were do i stand? where is the true meaning of life? i Know my God knows best.. trough the hard moments when everythings going wrong he stands still.. he is my rock even if the world is going in the opposite direction i pray for his holy grace and mercy to keep running towards the cross.. i will be safe in his arms..

lately ive been seeing so many people change i barely recognise some of my friends anymore .. some have become stronger because of the troubles in their lives some just remained the same but some have gone worse.. how can i be a witness of his holy love to my dearest friends? will they understand that it is just a continuous struggle to follow you? i am no saint i struggle its like i have to remind myself every second that Jesus lives in me.. i pray show me how to witness you love to them and i pray build them stronger trough my friends difficult moments.. and even renew faith's and plant seeds in those friends who still havent had the chance to experience you !

God said the harvest is big but there arent many workers.. friends of God lets really fish for men by witnessing by showing them that theres forgivness in jesus and nothing will every stop him from loving us!.. we are free for he has paid it all!

my heart is filled <3

2008-12-23T02:25:00.001+01:00

i wanted to run away i didnt want God's love cos i felt too much like rubbish for God to love me.. but my heart cried out to God and my mind had to settle down to the idea that i as Ben totally need his love..

how could i run away from the source of love.. i tried running away from sin but the chain kept pulling me back.. so i started running away from God instead.. but his healing set me free.. his death broke the chains of all sin in my life..

and in me there is the Spirit of God which enables me to proclaim God as the alpha and the omega, the begining and the end, the creator of heaven and earth, my salvation, true love, eternal Grace, and unfailing lover of human kind! This is the God i will worship.. the God that loves me no matter what ive done, passed trough he is my all!

WASAL FLAHHAR!!

2008-12-17T00:22:00.003+01:00

BIG CONGRATS TO STEVE AND BECKY!! what a beautiful son man.. iz zghir fesud taghan se jkun :D :D hes so cute... the first y4j baby :P

adni innocenti?

2008-12-15T00:04:00.002+01:00

Well been told that i might still be innocent in the way i think..I take it too much for granted that people will always do their best and always act justly...
well i believe i should think like that myself he called us to be like kids.. we trust in the father without thinking of consequences.. but were will it take me?teased cos im a Jesus boy (which i dont mind) or in a place where i will not know were i stand?
very much confused thoughts hehe and if you fellow bloggers and readers know whats going on in my head youd say AHHHHHHH .. i dont want to change the way i think , to a certain extent i like thinking that everyone does everything for the best of others.. if not i think id turn into a pesimistic chap whic always moans and grumbles

RUN

2008-12-07T15:30:00.002+01:00

was rewatching this video i posted a month ago.. and it just really convicted me to stand up and run.. run towards the truth and stop sitting down relaxed.. this is a battle a battle for souls and just liek leana said this might be the last day we will be able to praise Jesus.. so lets run away from anything that is not of our fathers kingdom and fight the just war... the war of love against all evil...
RUN towards Jesus

great words

2008-12-03T00:31:00.001+01:00

This guy speaks about his new album, listen to it he does a small bible study which really touched my heart.. enjoy :)

Hillsong + Delirious

2008-11-30T16:13:00.001+01:00

Hillsong United - Solution - With Hearts As One

2008-11-27T23:00:00.001+01:00

difference

2008-11-26T17:10:00.001+01:00

Hey guys,
long time no post hehe... passing a very dry period until last night i just burst into tears before God!

This morning we had an outreach at StJoseph school blata il bajda.. and we set up and stuff and girls started coming to our stand..

well most of them werent interested but some asked questions.. and at a point God was stiring up my spirit as i prayed for these girls..

He spoke," this is what you will be doing for the rest of your life"

and i was so happy that a tear ran down... i was so in awe of God and his plan for my life and the ones around me that i wanted to dance, shout scream cry with joy!

the video i posted is one of my favorite from united.. it calls us to take a stand to be the difference in the world...

and here i look at you fellow brothers and sisters in Jesus does our life make a difference in the lives were in touch with ? the communities were in? our friends?

stuff getting shape..

2008-11-21T00:42:00.004+01:00

so these passed 2 days ive calmed down.. i finally got my old msn address back(those who want to add me lifeinhere@hotmail.com) and closed a chapter in my personal life like.. so im quite glad now i can move on in life...
school.. i say i hate it then i love it.. but what attracts me most to school apart from electronics are my class mates.. i truly believe they are my mission field.. buidling quite a great relationship with them and i can say im becoming quite good friends with most of them one of which i could call brother too! would like to ask you guys to keep them in your prayers and me too so that when the question arrises about my faith i can answer them and allow the holy spirit to speak so that lifes can be touched!

anyways.. was just looking at some old photos of like 3 years ago at y4j lol we were so young.. so hekk about life and now most of us are living the real christian walk.. ! amazing imagine what people will be like in another 5 years time :P

and this is a pic of me when i was like 13 :P
ahh kemm kont qieghed sew :P with the mustache!

Stress and Strain... ohhh what a week

2008-11-18T23:00:00.003+01:00

hey guys
hope youa re all ok.. today i studied stress and strain at school and this is how i feel stress and strained had to format my pc been pc less for 3 days! and now i managed to format it and what happens my account is not working(msn) ive lkost all my contacts and thats what i really worry about so many friends i will never be able to speak to ne more.. people who are abroad and uggghh .. anyways apart form the pc troubles ive been ok at least i got more time for reading haha! started reading the great omission such a good book and basic sound principles(thank you paul for lending it to me) .. anyways im off to check my pc stuff gbu

2008-11-10T16:06:00.000+01:00

Lets be ...

2008-11-04T23:46:00.002+01:00

Lets be the church..

Guys i get so excited about what God will do in our lives as christians .. Lets live our calling.. some will tell me but what is my calling.. have you ever tried listening to God and reading his own Word? let go out there and live the message of the cross!!

todays thoughts

2008-11-04T00:48:00.002+01:00

Are we as we say The body of Christ? our we living who we say we are? was thinking about Dun Gorg's words at youth team bible study.. he spoke to us about St Paul... one think struck me .. he said "The pauline year is calling us to evangelise.. but not to evangelise to the outer world but to minister to our own communities and churches.." lets be the body of Christ lets break down barriers between us and become channels of love just as Jesus wants us to be!!

i encourage you to support your christian buddies .. ask them about their relationship with jesus, hows it going, if they need specific prayer... like that were encouraging many christians and we let them know that we care for them .. we are the church!

For we are free... by the blood of Jesus we inherit eternity, freedom healing but the best of all we are reunited with God! lets really understand that we are free! sometimes we still go on the guilt trips we dont really understand the forgivness of his mercy.. Lets go and be salt and light to the earth.. we are his apostles of faith.. fishers of men.. the moon that reflects the sun! we are his people.. and we rejoice in the fact that our names are written in heaven!

All Day? am i ready?

2008-10-31T16:48:00.001+01:00

during class i found myself thinking.. was tired after and hour and a half of binary digits so i let myself go in thought..

i started asking myself simple questions...
are you ready ben to give your life for your school mates so that may know Christ? bil Malti lest biex iwaqawk an nejk but still proclaim Jesus as Lord?... then i must admit i said no man i dont want to be an outcast.. but God spoke I love you why are you scared.. remember your brother and sisters in the persecuted church! do not be scared for i am with you..

so i really pose this challenge to you guys and myself.. Lets take the extra mile and be a different wherever we go.. not gossiping asking people to stop swearing, bringing up healthy conversations and moving away from places where people
dont want to change!
lets keep loving people who havent met christ ! but lets also be bold in our faith!

2008-10-29T15:08:00.001+01:00

2008-10-27T00:27:00.002+01:00

heard this song on amys blog and the music really expresses how i feel(dont really bothered to hear the words) feeling in a space of thoughts.. immersed in an ocean of what if's and my only consolation is God.. was watching a beautiful sky of stars just a couple of minutes ago and i was admiring Gods beauty whilst he was loving me in his arms...

today again i was challenged with people saying i want to live for Jesus but what does it mean? and i tried to explain but couldnt really! please i pray oh God guide my lips to plant the perfect words in their heart for this is not my work but yours..

when everything looks messed up i look at you on the cross.. i know you have won my life and all these questions are answered by your sacrifice.. you are alive and you have given me this new life trough your death! will i ever truly understand the full meaning of what you did for me? God you are my life.. the life every human being should be living..

keep me in your prayers guys i need to set things straight in my mind..

The Good Jihad

2008-10-23T23:19:00.001+02:00

you might say what on earth is this title?!? well just finished reading secret believers by Brother andrew. and in it he called christians to the Jihad! For muslims is the holy war to conquer all the earth under islam.. but the jihad we are presented with is the spiritual war! we are in a very huge spiritual battle! we have to fight with prayer and the Good News! we have to get that attitude of winning souls for jesus.. but in prayer and in love! For jesus is the real freedom and power we know and he has already won!

the old days and the new ones..

2008-10-22T23:47:00.002+02:00

Just saw martine's blog.. and saw Free hugs video...

oh man that brought me back to 2 years ago! i was so crazy and so passionate about telling people about Jesus and his love for us... we do the craziest thing in our own cool ways hehe the riding phase the park days.. meeting so many people and just having fun... we wanted to change the world....

but now i realise that i cannot change the world!! hehe you might say what? and please note i dont want to change the world... i want God to change the world.. i want God to change me personally ! and then trough the change that God does in me others will allow themselves to be loved by God and accept his freedom!

For there is freedom, hope and love in Jesus! hes the merciful God who died for our sins when he was blameless!

Jesus offers us to follow him... he calls us to carry the cross... im at the very end of the book"secret believers" and some christian converts followed Jesus to the point of torture and death (btw this book is about the present days!)

am i really recognising what carrying my cross means.. and i as crazy as i used to be for Jesus... today ive grown but i hope i will never allow the passion i had for Jesus years back to slip away ! i want to be passionate about God and tell people about his love in a different way from years back but with the same enthusiasm

i open my eyes...

2008-10-19T09:44:00.002+02:00

i open my eyes and all i see is darkness.. in the distance i see a light.. Its Jesus! im safe!

ever felt like everything is falling apart ? friends changing? choices you have to make that will determine your life? and the only way to go trough is with jesus...

walking in the darkness...

2008-10-16T21:27:00.001+02:00

Where does this road lead to?
i am a bit scared but i find refuge in your arms..
as i see the years go by i focus on your love that holds me tight and never lets me go!

this isn't my day..

2008-10-14T21:27:00.001+02:00

today started off well but in the afternoon i was started being asked about my faith...yet i couldnt answer.. i knew i wanted to scream out loud that Jesus is my saviour but i simply couldnt... i often feel like moses unable to speak.. i just pray that God came make trough a guy like me just like he did with him... it was horrible today.. i just wanted to run into Jesus's arms and cry.. some people just butted in and made the argument sound stupid and funny.. Oh God how could they not see what you have done for them,... such love...

Guys i ask you all to pray this prayer...
Dear lord i thank you for choosing me as your follower and friend.. i pray lord that by your grace and love i am turned into a true witness of the Lord.. so that were ever i go people will ask me about you and i can point at jesus and tell them hes the way the truth and the life!

this is home

2008-10-13T23:39:00.001+02:00

....

2008-10-12T00:33:00.002+02:00

im sad and in pain.. for when i hear of my friends not wanting to follow the lord i cry... why do you keep giving me second chances oh God? why do you love me, a sinner?
"for i have knitted you in your mothers woumb" thats what i hear God telling me when question myself and God about what i see around me... i feel lost at times wanting to let Go off the past and start a new life in Jesus yet at times im scared...

God is calling a generation to rise.. are we hearing his call? are we accepting the will of the father... lets rise up ad become apostles.. lets start in ur own home towns living the gospels then lets take it to the end of the earth! let us not be scared because God loves us! he made us and he will never forsaken us!

looking out of my window...

2008-10-10T19:15:00.003+02:00

imagine the world... were everyone lives what he preaches.. can you imagine it? i cant. yet all i see amongst me is many nations who dont have any direction who aren't conforming to what they believe in.. What if i had to live to the full would people see me as light amongst that darkness?
am i ready to be witness or even better a martyr.. am i ready the needs of others before myself?
am i willing to give it all like Jesus did?
I guess i just have to pray to become more like him... but what i can do is and everyone can ... is to take a decision consiously to follow Jesus no matter where it would take them...

"it has cost us nothing to be saved, but it'll cost us everything to be disciples" -i heart revolution

2008-10-10T09:00:00.001+02:00

no words to share.. just a million unexplained thoughts rushing in my mind... settling down to this new life style is hard.. but HE never left my hand and never will!

School!!

2008-10-07T23:51:00.001+02:00

So in less than 11 hours ive got my first test at school... man im loving school. hehe sometimes after certain lectures id feel like going home and arranging all the electrical units!! we seriously dont realise that were living in very dangerous houses! but ne ways ... at school today 4 new students joined the class, chukky, pawlu , dalli and ryan! i must say they gave a boost to the class! were not the old boring class of the first 3 weeks! we laugh and joke around in class yet we understand the lesson and help each other out!... im starting to like my new klikka at school.. i want to mention them.. charlot,rebeka, joshua, chukky, pawlu these are the closest since theyre in my class but made a couple of other friends too.. at first iw as very scared cos most of the guys in my course are younger but at leats i found tehse who are only a year or two younger :D

anyways im off to bed God bless ya all

What a weekend!!

2008-10-06T23:34:00.002+02:00

So long time no post had been busy with prep for the live-in and was at the actual live-in.. i must say this was a total new experience for me.. it wasnt just the normal weekend i was used to .. but God really made me stronger.. my faith got a boost!

i was crying at times seeing such a united community ... so many young people worshiping the lord and giving their lives to Jesus! isnt that amazing? when i saw them going up when tutzi made a call for those wanting to commit their lives .. i couldnt keep it in my heart wanted to burst with Joy!

a new generation is rising... a generation who is not willing to compromise their faith! Lets keep praying for the fire to burn in us guys!

2008-09-30T16:47:00.001+02:00

listen seriously to these words guys.. if you really get what hes saying, you'll understand what we have been hearing about at y4j.. being followers of Jesus

My heart cries out...

2008-09-28T11:22:00.002+02:00

What if i will totally reject you oh God?
What if in the future i will not want to love you any more?
Please dear God send people to take me back into your arms...
i know oh God that you will never forget me and will keep loving me till i will be back home..

For some what i just wrote might be is he going insane? but lately ive really felt afraid seeing so many christian's walking astray from what they preached.. in local churches and foreign ones.. that sometimes i say oh lord what if i fall into the pity myself.. i Know i am just a human and by myself i am nothing... but trough my God i can walk head up knowing that i am free redeemed by his blood.

Called to be his..

2008-09-21T02:53:00.002+02:00

Just came back from my best friends 19th party.. was a nice party loads of fun people yet i felt as if i was a no one.. what my friends did wasn't something they wouldn't usually do, they drank danced laughed their heads off etc.. but yet i was feeling empty.. driving back home.. i had an argument with God.. "why do i feel bad? why cant i fit in? " and then he said.. " you are called to be mine dont be scared " and i moaned " then take me to do your will, take me to the places where i can meet with the needs of your hurting world" then he replied," but i have put you in that place.. your peers are my hurting people..dare to be different"

How many times have i been in places where i can be a light and haven't?
when will i understand that livin for Jesus does not put me in a disadvantage with whom i know ?

I want to be truly yours o God!!

Uffff

2008-09-17T16:20:00.002+02:00

This thing of not smoking is getting worse! i must admit i have failed big time... not that i have smoked a lot but ive smoked everyday :( keep me in your prayers guys please

What am i called to do?

2008-09-14T23:34:00.002+02:00

What am i called to do in the midst of all this tension? What am i called to do when i see my friends not talking to each other?

The answer is in The Book! Jesus called us all to be witnesses.. Sorry guys but i really cant understand whats happening and im really sad knowing there's this tension... I want to witness to the ends of the world.. i want to love the unloved and i call everyone to this lets follow Jesus :) I myself am no saint, infact last week someone told me something that really shocked me.. this person said.. you say i am giving a wrong example by what im doing but what are you doing by smoking ! and it just struck me.. i simply had to do something about it.. i couldn't be a witness and smoke.. so i gave it up.. As todays reading said we have to carry our cross, symbolizing that we should die to our desires and be one in jesus! i must admit in this past week ive smoked 2 fags but thats it..

Going out of my comfort zone.. become Jesus like everyday.. enocuraging our firends daily and helping them remain focused on Jesus... asking them how theyre doing with their relationship with Jesus.. lets be all commited to Love!

So what are we called do?
to witness,
to love,
and to be Jesus everywere we go...

DAY 2

2008-09-12T08:52:00.003+02:00

Today's my second day at school.. i start in 2 hours ahh.. well its kinda a cool place i like it actually met a friend who lecture me in 2nd year hehe... on the whole i just think its great .. although there loads of stuff that i dislike but I'll cope.. im determined to study and become a great engineer!!

i just can Jesus's hand in this .. although it looks ahh.. my hearts at peace and i know that trough Jesus's love i'll manage i just feel totally in love with Jesus this morning :D I'll take all this love to school now :P see ya later