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Day 5 of not smoking, realises I've spent 5 years of my life wasting money and my own health!

Day 5 of thinking i could have done so much more by being myself than in the past 5 years of smoking.

Day 5 of thinking it took so long to surrender something that wasn't coming which wasn't coming from God

Day 5 of true freedom!


Last night i couldn't sleep kept thinking of the Stella Maris Outreach and about sharing my testimony.. I did not want to pump up my old life, but not even give it no importance, but i wanted to focus on Christ, and it just hit me.. Be Honest! it might sound weird but sometimes we like to put some mega crazy masks about our christian lives!

Its ok to be scared! its ok to fail! Its ok to run to Jesus in tears! Its ok to accept that life is being harsh! And lets not paint that everything is so great because its not ! But we have CHRISTS Joy! were free ! And that IS AMAZING , GREAT AND AWESOME!

Honesty! being honest with ones self about his or her struggles in life, but accepting that hey i cant do anything but God will do it all in love!

Now I'm shit scared of the Stella Maris outreach, I'm ultra duper mega scared of what the sound will be like at the Lenten talks, and I'm even more scared because i do not know what I'm gonna say for my talk! But I'm filled with Joy knowing that if i let go in His hands and move were He moves me everything will be Great!

All glory to God guys!!

pray pray pray! The battle has just started!!